Answering some questions about my child with special needs

Hey, good morning family. Praise the Lord. Thank you for joining me today.

Well, I'm going to talk about something that's pretty hard, but um there's a lot of you that don't have uh they don't know you all don't know about my daughter and all her testimony and the story of what she's been through. And I and I thought, well, I'll talk to talk about it because there's a lot of new faces.

Now, there's many of you that do know, but there's many of you that do not. So, for the ones that don't know, I'm going to talk about it because people go, "What's the noise in the background when you do your videos?" And people ask, they email, "What's that noise?" They think that there's a devil or there's something. That's my daughter and she has special needs. Um, when she was 18 months old, she got the flu shot. And um it's something that is very hard to talk about, but I talk about it because uh one day I believe it's going to be the greatest testimony that this world has ever seen before.

That's what I just keep saying to myself. But um you know, she got the uh flu shot and she was developing normal. Her abgar scores were completely normal when she was born. Everything was completely fine. She was talking.

She was making full sentences. She uh you know like any a 18 two months two year old would do. And uh because she was starting to really develop everything was okay. And when we went in her doctor uh suggested the flu was really bad that year and oh every parent should do this and you should have this done. And um you know kids can be hospitalized and as young adults we were fearful of that and so I told the lady I said yeah go ahead let's give her the flu shot.

Well, we got her the flu shot and it was at the same time we gave her measles ms and rebella shot her MMR within man what within just within just a couple of days she ran a very high fever very high fever and all of a sudden it's like she went from being a happy little girl that was developing normal to a child that was completely in a bubble. And lost all talking, lost all just made weird humming noises. Uh would went into a complete I like zombie state. It was so bad. I called the doctor and I said, "Something is really wrong with our child." My wife called uh and we said, "We demand you got to see her." Oh, she's just having a little bit of reaction to the flu vaccination, running high fever.

It's okay. This a pass. Don't worry about it.

I said, "No, there's something much more wrong. There's something really wrong." And uh Megan got worse and worse and worse. Her bowel stopped working. She wouldn't go to the bathroom anymore. Her belly would swell up to the size of a beach ball.

As a child, she would hold her bowels with three weeks at a time without going and would cross her legs because of the sensation of going, I guess. I don't know. I And it was so bad that she would uh just swell up huge and she'd be so impacted they thought they would have to have emergency surgery on her because we'd have to go in and do X-rays and it was it was absolute hell on earth. She uh started having the worst tantrums. She uh started biting herself.

Um she would wipe feces all down our hall all day long with what she would dig out of her uh hiney. It was I'm telling you it's just nasty.

But she would wipe it on furniture. She would wipe it on her bed. She would wipe it on our walls. And every day I'd come home from work and Diana come home. Um there was Diana would be at sometimes at home with her, she would just be weeping because of how bad the day was.

She would take everything in the bathroom and put it in the kitchen and everything in the kitchen into the bathroom. She put all the things in the bedroom and the living room and then and every year we put up our Christmas tree, she would take all the ornaments down, all the lights down. We'd go to bed at night and then she would put them in a in a drawer in the kitchen. This went on for years. The severity of this is I can't even uh just tell you with words how bad it truly was.

She would get two hours of sleep at night keeping us up all night long. We uh were Diane and I were walking zombies like because of how tired we were. I would go to work and pass out in the hall, you know, because of how tired I was when I was working on a Saturday cleaning the church. I would go into the men's stall and just lay my head over because I was so tired I couldn't I couldn't function even driving. It was so bad.

We would drive her around at night in the car uh just getting trying to get her to sleep. And the moment we because we had a big dies we had a diesel uh car, a diesel engine and it was a lot of vibration and it was loud.

So the vibration and the loudness she would kind of she would fall asleep as we were driving. But the moment we stopped the car and go into try to take her into her bed, she'd wake up. There was nothing that kept her asleep. And she and I would sit in there in the house and just rock her for hours as she would fall try to get her to fall asleep listening to music, Christian music to the point where if I hear those songs now, I it bothers me. I can't listen to that music anymore.

And so, uh, because of how traumatizing these moments were, um, I know there's a lot of you that have had have children with special needs, have a child with autism, and my heart goes out to you. I pray for you every all the time. There's people that send me the letters. There was one little boy I she her mom sent his mom sent us stuff and I and I remember her those days when she wouldn't she we didn't think that she would be where she's at right now. I mean I prayed and I believed but the doctors all told us she would never come out of the uh the age mental capacity of a 2-year-old.

And he said basically less than a five is three year old or whatever. And he said, "You, she'll never talk. She'll never be potty trained. She'll never uh have a normal functioning life. You're going to be this way forever.

Why don't you kids sign her over to the state and make her an orphan of the state so that you all you're young, you can start over and you can have a normal life." And I told him, I said, "I'll never do that. I'll never do that. I will raise this little girl and she'll be healed." He said, "You kids are in like uh denial. It's in La Land." He goes, "I've I've have over 3,000 documented diagnosises in the last uh since I've started my practice. And I've never not one time have I ever seen a child like this ever get any better or get or have a normal life ever since I've been doing this ever." And he said, 'I'm telling you all, you're you are in denial and you basically he was rebuking us, telling us that we needed to come to he said, "You need a reality check." So Diana said, "Sir, I know you may have never had a child uh that's come out of this that as this severe, and you may have not had it, but we are going to be the first ones.

We're going to be the ones that come back and tell you that Jesus Christ is a healer and she's going to come out of this. And we're still believing that, okay? After 21 20 years, 20 years going on 20 years and we're standing on it and we're believing for the full manifestation.

But I think it's it's it's I want you to know that even somebody who sees what I see and go through what I go through with the Lord and the relationship that I have with the Lord has things they go they go through. Not everything is always roses. I we have stuff we just don't I think it's interesting because we watch other people and they comment about what their child's going through on Facebook and they say these things, but I would never make public a lot of things that I've went through whenever Megan was first diagnosed. We didn't even say the word autism. I would I'd even I wouldn't even let you say it in my presence because I don't believe I'm going to I'm not claiming it.

I don't have that. I'm resisting what the devil has tried to put on us. I refuse to acknowledge it and say, "Listen, this is uh what we have." No, I am resisting. I am I am I am I am I am resisting it. I am not claiming it.

I am denying its right to be here. And by claiming it and saying I have this is not what we have. I am the healed resisting autism. I am the healed. She is the hill resisting autism.

And so I don't I you know whenever she makes those noises and those hums and all the things that she does, we don't even notice it anymore. We're so used to it because of how many years it's been going on or for 20 years. You just you just don't even think about it.

But whenever somebody's watching your video, they're thinking, "What is that?" You know, so I try to explain to y'all a little bit uh what we're going through. So when the So the Lord told me, he said, "Brandon, I've called you to the healing ministry. I've called you to go into all the world and lay hands on the sick and they'll recover." I said, "How am I going to do that?" Whenever I pray for my little girl and I haven't seen the full manifestation, I said, "Lord, I'll be a hypocrite." I said, ' If I got a child that's overcoming this and we don't see the full manifestation, how am I supposed to go and pray for sick and then tell them that Jesus is a healer, that you're a healer whenever I don't even see my daughter's full manifestation?

I said, that's very hypocritical, right? I mean, I argued with him and he said, Brandon, your daughter does not validate my word. My val word validates itself. It's a pillar by itself. I don't need Megan's healing full manifestation to prove my word is true.

My word is true and it stands alone. Regardless of your circumstances, just be obedient and do what I've called you to do.

I said, "Man, Lord, I have I have wrestled with this over and over and over and over again until whenever he told me, he kept coming to me and said, "Lord, I want you to start a YouTube channel. I want you to start do these things." And I'm telling you all, I wrestled with it for two years of us pulling videos and I wouldn't put it on YouTube. I two years I did this before anybody would ever really look at it. I put a video up for a couple days and took it down because I felt so um inadequate, so tormented by it.

And the Lord told me, he said, "I want you to do what I've called you to do." Well, we went to a Billy Burke meeting and that's where I always talk about Billy Burke. And um Megan was h it was my birthday. This is my birthday and I went for my birthday for a birthday present for me that I wanted to go see Billy Burke for her birthday and I was excited for about it. We got there. We had to sit at the very back because Megan was acting so bad.

We before this, we went to Andrew Wmack and we went to an Andrew Wmack to get Andrew Wack to pray for her and she was in the back of the service in this hotel room in Norman, Oklahoma. And she there was a huge light switch board that was on the back of the of the auditorium and Megan decided she was going to throw a fit and pushed those buttons and uh the lights and in the middle of Andrew Wack preaching his sermon, all the lights went out in the whole auditorium and went completely black.

So, there's probably 3,000 people in there or more and it's complete. You can't see your hand in front of your face inside of this auditorium with the doors closed and andrew on the front stage and he goes, "Hello." You know how he's so real country. And uh I literally thought I could crawl underneath the table and bury myself. That's how embarrassed I was. I was freaking out.

I grabbed a hold of her and I said, "I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry." Cuz it was in the middle of the thing and he's preaching and everybody's looking. He turned around looking at us like, "What happened?" cuz when the guy comes over, they all run over there at the flashlight looking to try to turn on the lights again cuz you know they're renting the building. They don't know how to turn the lights on, but they didn't lock them.

So Megan did that. So we were looking for prayer. I think he prayed for us, but nothing really happened. Not nothing against him, you know, it just we didn't nothing happened.

And so um just being real. And so after it was all over, uh, I walked away feeling so defeated because I knew that I was expecting something to happen at Andrew Wck's service.

And so that happened. So we took her to that. That was one of the only services after that we took her for a long time.

For a long time cuz I And then we got people telling us that she had a devil. I told you all about that. I took her down to a ministry in uh in Dallas area and um they charged us $500 to try to cast the devils out of her. And um I'm not going to get into that.

So then we took her to a Billy Burke service. And when we went to the Billy Burke service, we set up to the very back and we were at a massive church, huge church. And there was so many people you couldn't I mean, you couldn't stir them with a stick. And I was so disappointed because I wanted her to be down at the front and get prayed for, but so did everybody else that has needs, right? And the lines were long for prayer and Megan was losing it.

I mean, she was having one of her biggest meltdowns and she was pushing against me, freaking out. And I carried her up to the front holding her and she was resisting me and pushing off of me and everything else. And he says, "Uh, everybody who needs a miracle, get down to the very front. I'm going to pray for you. I'm closing the service." And I was like, "Oh, I was so disappointed because there was people all around me that had a lot more issues, it seemed like, than what we had, broken legs and all this thing going on uh with their bodies, and they were looking for uh healing, too.

But there was just too many people to pray for. And all of a sudden, my wife comes over and she stands next to me and my other two and they stood there and Braden was filming it like he always does cuz Braden he films everything and he was filming it and Billy Burke by the spirit of God looks over at us and he says, "You two come here." And he calls us over for us to pray for him. And you'll see the video right here. Is this your daughter?

Yes, sir. Bring her over here. She was making all the noise over there, right? What's going on with your daughter? She got a flu vaccination.

She had a flu vaccination. Cause autism. How old is she now? She's 13. She's 13.

She's 13. So that's the video.

And so that was the day that Megan started. That was the day that Billy Burke prayed for our little girl and she started having bowel functions for the first time. And she came home and for the first time had a bowel movement by herself and was able to go on the stool and was completely potty trained within a couple weeks. Happened within a within what 24 hours.

But it was after he prayed for her. It happened within a couple weeks.

Okay. God started to restore Megan. We were able to start going to church without her freaking out after that that in that visitation from the Lord. We weren't able to go into public places. We were not able to go eat in public places or go to church or go to Walmart or go to any of these places because Megan would have such a meltdown.

We would try to put her in the buggy and as she got older, I'd put her in a wheelchair and to the point where I just sat out in the car. It because it was so rough. We have videos. We took her to stores we've done now we to prove that we've taken her into place because we want to document it because when the full manifestation comes when the full manifestation comes God only God with all the documents will get all the glory for what he's done for Megan.

So, one day I was praying and our staff at our church was having a uh a harvest party is what we want to call it because we don't celebrate Halloween, but they were having a get together at pastor's house. And everybody was going over there for barbecue and for um for um refreshments, things like that. And we couldn't go because we didn't have child care for Megan because nobody really could watch Megan because of how bad Megan was. Megan would not um act outright. It was it was it was awful.

So, we never we never really left her with anybody because we knew that they couldn't handle it and we don't want to hear it. Megan was this, Megan was that. Oh, I don't care. I live it. You know, keep your comments to yourself.

So, family, even family, I couldn't deal with it. Don't want to deal with it. Megan wet in our chair. Megan peed or had a pee accident in our chair or ruined it. I don't want to hear it.

You know, I live it. She's destroyed three cars. I mean, seriously, that's how bad it was.

So, when people don't relate and they can't um handle something, they attack it or they you know, they accuse or hey, this is what you should be doing. And when you're doing all you can do as a child, a father with a special need child, I don't need any correction. You know, I need your I need sympathy and I need you to love on me whenever you are down and you're hurt and bad. You get that? And a lot of people always feel like they have their suggestion of what they think you should be doing because they have it all figured out.

They look at your life and they're doing it through their little their little u their magnifying glass going, I see that you have a flaw here and they have no idea because they've never been through anything in their whole entire life, but they have a suggestion and a cure for you. Does that make sense?

But everybody who's never been through anything knows how to fix your situation until you've lived it for less than a 24-hour in a period, you know. And you know, even the people who have, this is interesting, the people who have even more of an opinion is they just encounter you and they can fix all your issues.

But if you lived it for a week, you'd want to hurt yourself physically. You know what I'm saying? It was so bad. I wanted to run my car off a cliff so many days because I could not uh function. And that's how bad it was.

Uh, sleep. I wanted to run off a bridge. I was to self harm myself. That's how bad it was. I had to get I spiritually had to grab a hold of it.

And the reason I'm still here is because I had I had that will inside of myself by the Holy Spirit to say, "You can do this. You be a father to that child and you be a husband to that wife and you don't abandon them by being a quitter." But there were so many days that I went to a I went to an evangelist. I had such a deep root of depression on me and I was so suicidal that the evangelist that was at the front of the church saw it on me. He called me up to the front and said, "Sir, you need to come up here. There's a devil of suicide trying to come against you and I'm going to pray for you right now.

Jesus is going to set you free." I was so broken at that time. I literally thought I was lost. I didn't think I was going to make it out of it. And I remember sitting in the back of that church just looking for something. I left early that morning thinking I'm not going to go home today.

Diana was at home with the baby and I just with Megan and I and I thought I just I need help. I need help. And I drove to this little town, Crescent, Oklahoma. And this man named Ronald was there. Ronald was there and he was preaching.

And we had our son at this time. He was just a little baby. And I was I was so down with depression and suicide that I thought there's nothing else I can do. I just got to I got to quit. And I went to the back at this church just looking for hope.

And he called me out and he said, "Come down to the front." And he and he laid hands on me. And I'm telling you, that spirit came off of me and broke off of me. And the power of God set me free. Change changed me forever. Yeah, that the spirit tried to come back, but I resisted it more and more because I knew it was like to be free.

And there's so many times when you get to that place of uh desperation that you don't feel there's a way out of the hole that you're in and you think their only way out is death. But I'm trying to tell you today that Jesus has a plan for your life. And if I would have done what I was thinking I was going to do back then, I wouldn't be here with my son right now preaching the gospel to you. There's a place of desperation. There's a place of darkness.

That some people will never know until you've been there. A place of hurt, a place of discouragement that is so deep and so vast that you don't know how you're ever going to fill that bubble because you think there's no way out. And I'm so thankful for the Ronald's. He was a missionary from Romania and he came over there and he prayed for me. He gave me a prophetic word and told me there's people that have abandoned you.

And he gave me this word and it was it was right on the dead smack ride on. And um after he prayed for us, then I went and I got Diana and I said, "Oh my god, baby." I said, "I have hope. I have hope. This man called me out. You know the circumstance." She didn't know how bad I was cuz I try to be strong all the time for her.

And I and I ran I went over and I grabbed her and I got the kids and I and I took her to this revival at that night and they he was at a Pizza Hut at a pizza place eating after church and I took her over there and I said, "Let me just try to sew a seed." Because I knew the power of seed. It made me like 20 bucks. I don't know cuz we didn't have nothing.

But I told her, I said, "Let's just sew that in faith, believing for breakthrough in our household. Let's believe for what seemed impossible that God's going to turn it around." I go over this story and I cry every time and it's still painful.

So Diana got prayed for, Megan got prayed for, we all went home. But I was so uh I was so broken by it.

So now I go back to the to the to the thing where I told you we were at the h the party to the party and this happened right after that. That's what I'm trying to tell y'all. This happened right after that.

So, it was October the 29th and uh I was standing at the sink doing dishes and I had just come home from work and I said, "Lord, do you hear any of my prayers? Have you abandoned me, Lord? Do you care that I'm going through any of this? Do you see the pain? Just fussing.

Just fussing. Do you see the pain that I'm going through? Do you blah just blah just all the things just doing dishes at the sink scrubbing the dishes Diana's in there dealing with Megan and all of a sudden Jesus comes in and this is the first time I can tang tell you he was not a vision he was tangible like this he shows up into the kitchen the presence of God felt so much. I turned around as I'm fussing and Jesus said, "I've heard all of your prayers." And I turned around and I melted on the ground because I could not stand in front of his presence. And he looked at me and he bent over and I could just I can remember his face like it was yesterday.

He laid his hand upon my shoulder and he told me, he said, "Brandon, I've heard all of your prayers." He said, "What do you have need of, son?" I said, "Lord, Lord, don't you know?" I said, "Maggan." And he said, "According to your faith, Brandon, be it done unto you." I said, "Lord, I'm I want Megan to be completely healed." And he said, "She will start to amend from this hour." And he ministered to me some things that I'm I won't talk about, but he ministered to me and he loved on me. It was private stuff. And he and he laid his hand on my hand and he blessed me and he was loving on me. Diana comes around the corner and she don't see him, but she feels the presence of the Lord in the house. And it was so strong and so powerful that that it made her stand like hold to the wall.

I remember her coming in and she said, "Oh my god." She goes, "Are you dying?" Because she thought I was going home because I was on the ground in a in a in a in like a heaped over like just weeping. And I was sobbing because the presence of the Lord was so filled my house with the glory of the Lord when Jesus showed up. He's he's touched me. He looks over and he smiles at her. He didn't say nothing.

And she, she don't see it, but she feels the presence of the Lord. I said, "Baby, Jesus is here. Jesus is here." She says, "I can sense. I can feel, but I don't see it. I don't see him.

I don't see him." And she stood there and she started weeping at the presence of the Lord. And the Lord told us that Megan was going to get better at and in that hour. To make a long story short, I know there's some of this I'm never going to ever tell it publicly. He blessed me and he t he talked about the ministry. That's all you need to know.

Then he said to me, Brandon, my father's calling me. I must go. He turned around and just as he came, he disappeared right out of my kitchen. I wept. I look over at Megan ex Megan expecting her to be better and nothing a you know the Bible says as they went they were healed as they went they were healed it wasn't instantaneous that Jesus healed some people it was as they went that was that was Saturday.

So Monday she went to school and uh her teacher called me in the middle of the afternoon. It's around 2:00 and she said she said, "Brandon, what did you do to Megan? Something's happened." And I said, "Hold on, Kimberly." I said, "What do you mean? What did I do to Megan? What do you mean what happened?" and she said, "Explain to me how she's saying words." She said over 50 parited words today.

We're talking a child that had no vocabulary at all, was not able to function at all, able to keep eye contact for the first time, and was repeated. She made a list of all the words that Megan was saying on a piece of paper and we still have that today. We still have it today because it was a miracle. Megan still says things like paring things all the all the time now even and she says I love you. She says she says hi daddy.

She says hi mommy. Those are the things Megan does now. She's starting and it's becoming more and more every day. Uh I want food. I want water.

Uh things like that from nothing at all to now starting to say little phrases. Yeah, it's been a long time, but we've stood and Megan, we went we were so wanting to help her. We do an ABA and do all this stuff. We thought we put it all on our credit cards. We did everything we could to try to help our child to get out of that because there was no government assistance.

There was nothing really for Megan. They would only all lot so much a month.

So we just kept charging. We kept doing things.

So we f we had to file bankruptcy because we were trying to find her help. There was all these different doctors saying all these different things saying, "Hey, if you do this, this is going to work. If you do chilation, whatever, they run the IV and they do all the things through your body to pull the heavy metals out from the shots, the doing enemas to uh all kinds of things with chil ke chilation or whatever it's called. Sorry, I butcher the word. We did all of it.

Uh Dan doctors, you name it. We spent thousands. DNA testing, magnet testing, all kinds of things, you know, over the years. It's kind of like the woman with is with the issue of blood whenever she said she spent all she had but she grew worse. That's the way it felt like with us.

All of these things didn't help but Jesus. We went to a Billy Burke meeting and you saw what happened and the power of God came on Megan and that's why we're we're hooked to going to Billy Burke because we went and spent we went to all the big healing evangelists. I'm not here to uh throw any of them under bus because it's not their faith that does anything. I was seeking the anointing.

But in a place of desperation and it was so bad that we I didn't think we were even going to be able to stay. God pointed us out. God through him.

Hey, you too. Come over here. You watched it. It was just God. There was there was hundreds of people if not a thousand people up at the front or more.

And God did that. And that was our beginning of our journey.

Then we went to Eupfalla and now and now Megan's getting better and better and better. And we went and we've went to the thing in Fort Lauderdale.

So when you say Brandon, why are you so uh so addicted to going to believe her? Because it's the first sign of hope. It was the first sign of true hope other than what I had whenever she was at with that visitation from Jesus. That was a 10-year window. Almost 10 years, whatever it was.

It was a long time. Yeah. Plus 10 years before we saw any other things starting to get better.

Then we went to a Billy Burke meeting and it and then it was like boom. And now it's starting to roll.

But I'm saying it's like what he always says. God doesn't dangle a carrot. Brandon, God doesn't dangle a carrot. He doesn't heal you part way without getting the full manifestation to dangle a carrot and tell you, "Well, I'm going to do part of it and not do the whole thing." I believe Megan is a work in progress. That's where that all came out of.

I'm a work in progress. We talk about it all the time. God, we're a work in progress. Regardless if we miss it, if we fall, if we stumble, whatever we're a work in progress with life. And I believe there's a lot of you that are watching this video today that you can relate some way.

Maybe not all the way. Maybe your circumstances a lot worse. Maybe your circumstances is you've been given a death sentence. Maybe you've been But I'm telling you, it's the faith that keeps on keeping on. It's the faith that keeps on keeping on.

Whenever it doesn't look like you're going to get out of it, whenever it looks the darkest is whenever you be you get that bulldog inside of you saying, "I'm not giving up." It's like when I went to that Ronald meeting, it was like, "I need help. I need help." When you come to your end, I need help. I can't do this anymore. And I know there's a lot of you that have that are in that place right now that say, "I need help. I can't do this anymore.

I can't do this anymore. I had a I think it was a is it either email or something somebody tell saying my husband's dealing with this and he's ready to hurt himself, self harm himself because of the fact that he has tendonitis in his ears. And that's where this came out of after I did this video for people like that.

Because I'm telling you, whenever you go through something and it seems that it's never going to stop and you think, "I'm going to just do myself in. I can't do this anymore. I can't." And there's people that have all these things that go through and you think the only way out is death. The only way out of this circumstance is to quit. I'm trying to tell you as a living testimony that there's more.

And God has a plan for your life. It's not for you to hurt yourself or do something silly that it's forever permanent. Don't do something permanent for a temporary problem. Don't do something permanent for a temporary pro problem. This too shall pass.

This too, those dark days will pass. I believe that God is a rewarder of those that diligently seek him. And whenever it seems the darkest, light's just around the corner. I believe that your circumstances are going to change today. I'm here to tell you that I'm still walking through some of the valley.

I'm still walking through the times that of hardship. I'm still walking through the things that it doesn't look in the natural that I tell you I deal with Megan. We had a really rough day with her on Sunday. I didn't even go to church. That's the Oh, but is that But is it all fall?

The world's falling in. Oh, no. I thought you were getting better.

No, devil, you ain't stealing my victory. Get off. We're going to church. We're going to be a family. We're going to do these things.

Do you understand? Even whenever the circumstance try to change and it throws up in your face to try to get you down, to try to suck your joy out, that's whenever you stand the most. Whenever the waves and the storm winds blow, that's when you stand the most. And I'm here to tell you, sometimes it gets darker before it gets light. Sometimes the valley of the shadow of death feels that it's going to devour you.

But he said he would never leave you. And he said he would never forsake you.

Lo and to the end of the earth, he said he would be with you always. Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil because thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me. And that's why I say, my God has a big staff. My God has a big rod and he's going to bust you in the head, devil. I'm not going to allow you to get me down and ever do that again.

It's what you think on. What you think on the most becomes bigger in your life. Sometimes whenever all you see in front of your face is is this the problem it's hard to see anything else. I get it. Whenever it's so close to your nose your nose is in it and it's like poo and it's somebody's rubbing that in your face.

The devil rubbing in your never going to get out of this. You're going to be in this hole forever and you're going to go I can't breathe anymore. I get it.

But God. And I'm just here to tell you a little glimpse of hope and to tell you a little bit about my past to tell you to encourage you to encourage you that you can keep on keeping on to. You can keep on keeping on. Yeah, we sometimes we walk through it and we're crying. Sometimes we're walking and crying.

I'm telling you, there's day I've cried. I cried today.

Look at me. It's painful.

But you still get up and brush yourself off and you don't give up on Jesus because he's never given up on you. He's never given up on you. Jesus has never given up on you. And I don't give up on this my circumstances. I don't I don't give up.

Give up whenever I see that I feel that it's like whenever he said I want you to go and do this. I can't be a do this. You I'll be a hypocrite. Do it.

Yes, Lord. So let's take communion today over your circumstances. That today's your day that you'll have your experience. That today's your day that you'll get your breakthrough. That no matter how dark the circumstances are in your life, no matter how hard you think it is in your life, God is going to turn it around for you.

Do you believe that today? Do you believe that you are more than a conqueror? You have to believe it. I Everybody needs a Ronald. Everybody needs I feel like sometimes to pull help pull you out of the ditch.

That's where I get out of those things. When you're going in a ditch, you fall in the ditch. There's somebody pulls you out of the dish. Doesn't mean you're supposed to always hang around them, but they're just there to help pull you out. Ronald pulled me out of the ditch.

Ronald did. And I was thankful for that. My God, I'm so thankful for that. Flew all the way from Romania to Oklahoma to preach in a little country church in Crescent, Oklahoma just to touch me. And now I'm here talking to you.

Pretty amazing what God will do. Isn't that amazing? I Wow, Lord. The people that come across your path that help pull you out, I never forget them, and I'm thankful for them. Thank you, Father.

Thank you for Ronald's. Thank you, Father. Father, we lift up this body before you today. Thank you, Father, that you see us whenever we're at our darkest hours. Thank you, Father, that you see us and you deliver us, Father, whenever you we think that the water is going to fill our lungs and we're going to drown.

That there's nothing that we can do to get out of the hell hole that we're in. But Jesus paid the price for us to walk in victory. And Father, I thank you, Lord, even more so that Megan is being healed by your stripes. And that there's plenty of other Megan's out there. There's plenty of other people out there that need a miracle today, Lord.

And I thank you, Lord, that I agree with them. And I'll be there, too. I agree with you. I'm agreeing with you today that your victory is right at hand. Not 10 years from now, but today.

Faith is a substance of things hoped for and evidence of things not seen. I believe it's manifesting today. And Father, we lift up this body before you in the name of Jesus. And we thank you, Lord, that you were wounded for our transgressions. You are bruised for our iniquities.

The chastisement of our peace is upon you. And with your stripes, Lord, we are healed. And I hold and I lay hold to it in Jesus name. And I say I am the healed resisting sickness. Not I am sick re trying to get healed.

I am the healed saying Satan you can't steal my healing. I am already healed. I'm fighting from the place of victory. I've already got the victory. Jesus paid the price for me to walk in victory.

So I'm not trying to get victory. I've already got victory. And I'm resisting sickness. I'm resisting autism. I'm resisting all the things araxia speech all these things I resist it in the name of Jesus you have to do that you fight from a place of victory I am not you say I am not a person who has cataract I'm not a person who has this I am the healed resisting cataracts I am a I am the healed resisting tendinitis I am the healed resisting cancers or diabetes or whatever you may be going through today cancer answers, whatever.

There's a many of you have many things, but I believe that you are in the place of victory. Why? Cuz Jesus paid the price for you to walk in victory today, just like he did for me. When do you get the Well, where's my manifestation? I don't worry about the manifestation.

God's got that. I'm not worried about the manifestation today. I don't think about it. I don't even think about it. Why?

Because Jesus paid the price for me. Do you believe it? Thank you, Lord, for all you've done and all you're going to do. And I take this body in the name of Jesus.

Now, Lord, we plead the blood. We make much of the blood and the blood makes much of us. And we thank you, Lord, for your healing power that flows on the inside of us that no weapon formed against us will prosper. And if we confess our sins, you're faithful and just to forgive us of our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness. And we lift up this blood before you in the name of Jesus.

And we thank you, Lord, for all that you've done and all that you're going to do. You're so good to us, Father. And we thank you, Father, that we're free by the blood of the lamb and by the word of our testimony today in the mighty name of Jesus. Thank you, Father. Thank you, Lord.

Thank you, Father, for the blood. I thank you, Lord, for our minds are renewed by the word of God. You got to get in this beautiful book and renew your mind. The joy of the Lord is your strength today. The joy of the Lord is your strength today.

You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you today. The greater one lives on the inside of you today. You have to believe that even in the midst of the darkest times you go through, the greater one lives on the inside of me today.

No weapon formed against me is going to prosper. I bless you in the name of Jesus today. All that you are feeling like you want to self harm yourself that's broken off of you. I rebuke the spirit of suicide and depression, anxiety and fear and I come against it in the name of Jesus and I stand in agreement with you. You have to stand it.

You have to say it. Life and death is in the power of your tongue. I cannot control that over you. You have to say it for yourself. I am free.

I am free. You have to say it. I am free from demonic oppression today. I am free from self harm thoughts. I am free from depression.

I am free in the name of Jesus. I refuse. The joy of the Lord is my strength today. Peace that passes all understanding is over me today. You got to believe it.

You've got to believe it. You've got to believe it. Say it out your mouth.

Because out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks. The Bible says out of the abundance of what's inside what is in the overflow of you is what's coming up out of you. What you're saying out of your mouth is what you're living. Out of the abundance, overflow of the heart. The mouth speaks today.

Remember this. So you say, "Well, why am I living this?" Because of what you've been saying. I'm not depressed. I'm I don't have anxiety. I have joy.

Say that. I have peace.

So all the people who are dealing with that stuff, you may need to have you may need to talk to somebody. You need to probably go to a counselor to a church member because really by law I'm supposed to tell you that especially in the government here in America. You have to if you're feeling those things, you need to find somebody to talk to. You need to find somebody to talk to. Go find a minister.

Go find somebody and tell them, "I'm having these thoughts. I need to have somebody to talk to today. Call the line the line of somebody and tell them a church or whatever. You need to tell somebody, reach out to somebody and find some help cuz I did. Ronald was there for me.

So, I'm believing for you. You got a Ronald coming. I believe somebody's coming across your path is going to help you pull you out of your ditch. And I believe today I pray for you and you coming out of your ditch.

But sometimes we need a little extra. Sometimes we need a little extra. You know what I'm saying? It's not a bad thing. It's not something to be ashamed of.

Sometimes we just need a little extra. You know, it's good. Everybody has their stuff, guys. Everybody has their stuff that go they're going through. And at that point in time, Jesus is your savior and he's your he's your healer and he knows what you're going through.

And so, I just tell you all that today just to encourage you that yeah, we're walking through the valley still, but yet we see the light at the end of the tunnel. We see it. Before I couldn't see it. I see it now.

So, we pray this video richly blessed you today. I have some things I have to go do, but I just thought I would pray and lift you all up, give you an encouraging word today, tell you that Jesus loves you to put a smile on your face. And you know what? We like I said, we all have something we're going through, y'all.

But I appreciate your love and your support, your kindness. And we'll be back here to pray tomorrow lifting up things and going in the rivers. See what the Lord will show us. You know, I won't have anything really to talk about, so we'll just jump right into prayer unless the Lord shows me something between now and then.

But God bless you all and we will see you again soon. Remember, put a smile on your face and a song in your heart. Jesus loves you so much and we love you. God bless you and we will see you again soon. Bye-bye.